From my Transparent Heart...

So since the new baby Emmie has been born, lets just say my life hasn’t slowed down any. Not that I figured it would, but at 12 weeks old, I am still trying to get this family of 5 on a schedule that works. It seems that the nights I plan to go home and sew, or craft, it just doesn’t end up happening. I get discouraged seeing laundry in baskets and dishes in the sink and I think well I will get these done and then I will feel better knowing its not plaguing me, but you know what happens. By the time I get it all done or as much as I can, homework done, getting clothes out for the next day, then bed times start rolling in, and once the babies are all in bed, this momma is ready herself. What does this mean for Chrissy Couture? Not sure. I did find time last week to make a cute dress, but I’ve not had a chance to photo it cutely and get it up on the blog. Also made myself some hair pretties, but yet again, I can barely find the time to actually do the fun creative things I enjoy, let alone blog all about it. I started this blog as an creative outlet when I was so depressed after my little Miss O was born. What I went through physically after she was born just made the emotional part of me fall apart. Getting into this creative area and learning to sew on my own has been so much fun. I am no way near signing up for project runway, or even trying too many adult clothes, but I enjoy dreaming one day I might be good enough to do something with this fun little “talent”. (Can I call it a talent? I am not really that great at any of it). Originally I thought I was just doing this for myself, but now that I have moved past those issues and feel better physically and emotionally, I just don’t know if its “necessary” in my life like I thought it was at one time. Sometimes I would like to just blog about life issues, being a working mom, trying to be supermom when I fail miserably….things we all can relate to, but that isn’t how I started this blog and not sure anyone would really be interested in those things. I just want to feel like I am inspiring someone. Whether it be from words, or you seeing that I can do something and you can too. Maybe its just more of my desire to work in the ministry but not seeing how that will happen. Anyway, I guess I said all of that to say blogging may be on hold for a while till I really figure out the direction I want to go. I don’t want to give it up entirely, because I have had a few people tell me how much they enjoy my blog (Which makes my day), but hearing it from 100 people would be nice…(or hey even 10) haha. Sometimes I just have to realize I can’t do everything and that is a hard concept for me to realize. Until Next time…. Keep Calm….It will all work out how its supposed to.