So what do we do but press forward....Onward!
I think a lot about things. Ok, well, I tend to over think way too much about too many things. I am still not sure that is the truest statement. I tend to completely and always over think every thought questioning myself and everyone around me, along with all the ways I could have done it differently or how I will do it differently next time, or what I should or shouldn't have said and how that may or may not have made someone else feel. Exhausting huh? Tell me about it. This is real everyday life for me. It can be a curse if you are a Sanguine personality type like myself who is a people pleaser. So there are many times, driving usually, that my mind will just take off. I will turn the radio on just to silence it! Yesterday was one of those days.
What am I doing? Why am I doing it? Is this really life? Where do I go from here?
Wife, Mom, Employee, Student, Friend, Sister,..... constantly trying to give myself to everyone else's needs and then question if I was enough. Seems about routine these days. I was exhausted. I know you can relate right? I mean we are women of purpose right? Sometimes that purpose is just getting through the day without crying or yelling, but hey if you fail, tomorrow is a new day right?
The point is, I was driving, feeling sorry for myself, cause that't what we do. I started to compare my life to everyone else's and tell myself how bad I have it. I started to ask God why I don't have this or that, that I see others with. Not necessarily physical temporal things, just things. I was instantly convicted. I really am quite blessed. I really should be thankful or grateful instead of throwing myself a pity party. I had to regain some focus.
One of my favorite messages I heard preached a few years ago came to my mind. He compared life to a chocolate cake. No wonder it has resonated with me for so long. Hello!! Chocolate cake is my very favorite cake and is in the the top 5 of all time deserts. Anyway, I digress. Haha!
See life is just like a cake.
- Start with the Flour. The main part or majority of the cake. Flour is the everyday in and outs of life. Work, Eat, Sleep....rinse, lather, repeat. Math homework, helping brush teeth, yelling "stop fighting with your sister!", washing dishes, pouring yet another sippy cup. The mundane, unexciting bland flour. Without it though, there would be no cake. It is necessary. The base of the mixture.
- Add in the sugar, vanilla, cocoa. The sweet or fun things in life. I love sweet things. I can even go overboard and then end up sick off too much. So if we follow the recipe we get just enough to make the cake sweet enough; Bedtime kisses and snuggles. "I love you's" for no reason. Pictures drawn just for mommy, flowers delivered at work, a diet vanilla coke. Just the things in life that make it sweeter. We may not get great news or excitement every day, but we get random blessings that help us remember we are loved.
- Add in the baking soda and salt. This would represent the not enjoyable things we go through. Unfortunately they are just part of it. No one wants to get rear-ended in their car. No one wants the basement to flood. No one wants to run out of laundry soap ....But, just like sugar or the good things, they are necessary to build a delicious cake.
- Oil, Water. Well that's what holds it all together. Jesus. He will take the good and the bad, the mundane and unexciting and bring it together. While He mixes, you become less focused on what the bad was, what the good was, but a beautiful cake is taking form. Just like when you give him all your good, all your bad, all your mundane and exhausting day in and day out transactions, he can make your life into something beautiful.
Yesterday was a flour type of day. Nothing bad was added to my recipe but the mundane of my flour took over and I began to think of all that was missing from my recipe. I just started mixing my ingredients that I had again, thinking about the good and the bad things in my life and then....added more oil. I find that if I don't have enough oil, my cake will never turn out, seem dry and not what I want. Add more Jesus to your life and he will make you whole.
Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer righteous to be moved. Psalms 55:22
Casting all your cares upon him, for he careth for you. 1 Peter 5:7
Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he is trusteth in thee. Isaish 26:3
So next time you are feeling overwhelmed with your days of flour,....
Keep Calm.... add more oil....